How is it that humans avoid being commited to loving each other? Are they so afraid to make mistakes or take risks when it comes to relationships? Are they trying to avoid the guilt and pain that potentially comes along with the oath of love?
Why can't the person I love, love me in return? I feel like a fool. I feel as if I gave my whole heart, only to find it rejected as if it was worth nothing.
Lord Jesus, how could You bear it all? Your love for mankind was so overflowing and extended to the ends of the earth. You sacrificed everything to save them; you gave up Your life. And yet, the lowly man rejected it with selfish pride and shameless mockery.
How it is that You, Lord of all Lords, can still forgive all men and pin for them to return their love to You? You loved so much until it hurt. Are You the biggest Fool for Love?
Should I allow myself to entertain rage and grief? Should I allow myself to wallow in bitterness and self pity? Should I allow anxiety to take control? Should I allow myself to feel dangled and torn on like a ragged doll?
I'm in pain and sorrow. I lost in confusion; drowning in emotions. I need something to hold on to. I'm reaching out for you, God, Solid Rock of Faith. Lend me Your strength when I'm weak. Fill my empty and aching heart with your Love in abundancy.
God, help me to love even when I feel pain and rejection. Set me free from my selfish perceptions of what Love should be. Open my heart and eyes to see through the deceptive worldly interpretations of Love. Let your True Peace and Comfort flow through the wounds of my heart. Let the Healing Rain fall.
Let me be a Fool for Love.
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
Flight delays are not cool......
On a wonderful Sunday evening, Mave arrives at the Des Moines International Airport a teeny weeny behind the usual time Mave would arrive at any airport: 15 minutes before take off.
But alas, the flight is delayed by an hour. Mave looks pretty upset. Lady at the ticket counter retorts, "Oh but you know, you should be here earlier."
.........As if the plane would -NOT- be delayed if Mave had been here earlier? Ok, next time, Mave will be here earlier so she can waste more time waiting for it. Cool.
Anyway, story continues....Mave runs through the security like a mad woman (it's a wonder that the security guards did not hold her back under suspicion). Mave for some unexplainable reason, still wants to be at the gate even though the plane will only arrive ~ 1 hour later. There must be something severely wrong with the coffee treat Jas gave her or with the general air quality in Iowa.
It takes 10 minutes before it all sinks in. Mave finally pouts, sits down and keeps herself from conjuring wicked thoughts about [unnamed airline company] by reading a printed story draft. To humor the whole situation, Mave takes a candid photo to express her feelings and profound thoughts of the airline company's performance.
Soon, Mave is riding on a plane towards Chicago but alas, anxiety and stress follows her.
Arriving flight estimated landing time: 8.50 p.m.
Connecting flight takeoff: 9.00 p.m.
Do the math. Mave misses her connecting flight to Kalamazoo.
She also almost ran down the person at the gate. That woman is XL-sized and Mave wisely avoids picking a fight. However, her face is plastered with despair.
Suddenly, one of the airline ladies at the gate counter speaks up, "Would you like a flight to Lansing? It leaves in 10 minutes."
"Hand it over!"
Mave runs like a mad woman to the next gate. She eventually finds herself flying to Lansing, calling up friends in a frenzy to look for a ride from the airport, a place to stay and finally, a ride back to Battle Creek the next day. God is Good, all is granted.
There's nothing like home. Well....my second home at least. ^__^
Saturday, August 06, 2005
Blogathon: Who would have ever conceived such a brilliant idea?
LOL
Alright, this is the deal. As part of support for PAWS, bloggers all over the world (ok maybe just in Malaysia) have agreed to go on a 24 hour blogging frenzy with sponsors to pledge their money towards this good cause.
Personally, I'm all for this. I love animals and it makes me pretty unhappy to see stray animals suffering on the streets or being put away simply because their previous owners decided that they don't want a pet anymore or that it was too.....inconvenient.
Sheesh, ppl, have a heart. What would you do if your parents just decided that they didn't want you anymore? Not that fun anymore, right? Human beings are not trash and neither are animals.
If you find that you cannot support your pet anymore, at least do the responsible thing: Transfer ownership to someone capable.
Wish us luck in this blogathon at cyber-red's blog (see link on left navigation) and pls support the homes that care for these animals!