Blimey, I'm a working adult now and I'm not sure how much I like it.

It's my second day of work as a sensory intern in K-land. So far, I've been wearing professional clothing, running around into all sorts of meetings, getting to know new colleagues and learning how to get around in my new office. Half of me is excited and enthusiatic. I thought my current work experience (obtained from grad school) was something to be proud of. But the more I learn at work, the more I realize how little I know about the real working place.

The other half of me is intimidated and exhausted. There are so many new things to learn; I almost feel overwhelmed and inadequate. I look at all these experienced colleagues and wonder whether I could ever be like them. If my manager handed a project for me to handle independantly, I think I'll just freak out. (^__^);;;

ok ok ok....think positive. If God leads you to it, He'll lead you through it. God won't lead you to something you can't handle. Yeah, I must remember that.

I kinda miss surfing the Internet, emailing or chattings during daytime since we can't do stuff like that during working hours (duh). But man, when both my Internet and cell phone didn't work for that one day in K-land, I've never felt so lonely in my life. Perhaps I've gotten too dependant on my friends and ppl's company. Andreas is in Indonesia, most of my friends are in EL, friends in K are in a different building and department.......God, preserve me.

Hai, enough ramblings. Gotta finish off my thesis and another paper for publication. It all just seems endless. When will I get a break?

I AM FREE. Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....................................

Well, not really yet. But close. XD I PASSED my freakin' oral examination!!

\*0*\ \*0*/ /*0*/ Go me! hahaha Nah, I'd rather say thank God! (^__^)

The feeling after the pass was strange. I felt like I had nothing to do and just walked around kinda aimlessly. I went home and chatted w/ friends online, sharing the good news. I was so happy until I forgot all about sending my friend Saw Meng to the airport to fetch a rental car (haha).

After that, I stopped by May's place and watched a movie adaptation of the Phantom of the Opera. I felt guilty doing just that (the movie)! Dude, I'm such a workaholic or stressaholic! Do I feel bad because I'm not being tortured by work? Sheessshh.....

Anyway, it was great to have the time to hang out with long neglected friends. Saying goodbye to Saw Meng was sad but I'm glad I got to chance to say farewell to him in a unhurried state of mind (as opposed to being really stressed and tensed for my defense). He's among the few cool Malaysian guys I've ever met in life. Go Saw Meng and God bless & protect you wherever you go!

All in all, I am grateful and glad I've overcome an obstacle. Grad school was a valuable yet painful lesson for me and it's something I'm not planning to repeat for some time. As I said in the end of my presentation, thank you God for not only leading me to a challenging phase in life, but thanks for carrying me through it as well. Amen.